You are a self-rightous man, just like so many church goers. You get blinded by you ego, and think that you are better than the rest. Oh, and you will say no, you are not, right? You say you hate sin? Your hate is sinful! You and all others who believe there is only one way to live, and that's according to the misrepresented teachings of the Bible, you are ignorant do-gooders. You cannot accept your weaknesses, so you cannot accept it in anyone else either! So you join a religion that promotes one thing and one thing only: CONDITIONAL LOVE!!! Don't call that love, for IT IS NOT A HIGHER LOVE! It's judgement, and judgement has created more insanity, paranoia, inconfident, depressed people, than helped any. You create this rule that "we will love you if you join us and follow our rules!" And you hold the most powerful and influencial form responsible for that: GOD!! All according to ONE book! ONE Book!!!! And you condemn any thing else that falls outside of that? This is so typical of a quality that so many people share in this world: Ignorance! How ignorant and unevolved can you be to think that your way is THE way? Don't you see that there are at least another two thirds of the planet thinking totally different about life? You hold them invalid all because you are too scared to really think about what your spiritual teachers teach you, and what you read in the Bible?
I tell you a very simple reason for why it is the way it is with all you people who don't really question the principles your religious teachings were based on: You believe it and don't question it because you are Scared!! This is why. You have been taught that you are no good if you are weak, that you are not worthy of love if you are vulnerable. That you are not worthy of love, if out of your frustrations you become a thorn in other people's lives!
Nobody has ever asked you WHY you did the "bad" things you did! And yet nobody has ever really explained WHY those things you did WERE bad! Did they? They most likely told that is was bad and you are not supposed to do that, because god doesn't want you to or something "thin" like that. Nobody has given you credit for being frustrated, and nobody has validated YOUR PAIN!!! No one has ever given you understanding! They just gave you a simple and effective explanation, and a sure way to invalidate your own being: That you are bad and you must change if you ever want to be loved! And of course you do want to be loved. And so you willingly condemn all the feelings that you were never made to understand. And to help you with your self denial your parents and your teachers told you that there was a persona responsible for your ugly feelings: the Devil! So you have been given someone to blame for all those bad things about yourself. Of course. How could you live with the responsibility for all those horrible things your were told that you were. How can anyone live with the guilt for being so bad? Children would go mental with that kind of a weight. This is the classic example of how people deal with pain: YOU BLAME SOMEONE ELSE! This is what the church has taught you; it has taught you NOT TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY! This is how you became fragmented individuals who are always running from their feelings, and have a whole system, a whole institution built to these beliefs. There are so many people there to support you in this, that no wonder you so willingly give up your fights for TRUE SELF RESPECT, and self acceptance. YOU ARE SCARED BECAUSE YOU HAVE BEEN DENIED LOVE FOR WHO YOU ARE! You were denied once, and you never want to be not loved again. This is why you don't question your own beliefs, because you are scared. But it's just an illusion!
I know that you suffer!!! You can blame the devil or whomever for your struggles, but you know in some moments when you are alone, you feel strangely empty, a kind of loss, a certain feeling that you are lying to yourself all the time, and you are living way less than you are really supposed to; and you know that your god is not giving you that satisfaction that you really really should be getting out of life...You know these moments. You could change this. By accepting the feelings you were taught to blame, and giving them validity. By not believing any more that they are unworthy parts of you, unworthy of love. And certainly not blaming the devil for them. Just accept them. Because you know you cannot hide from them. You know.
If you ever want to research more in this direction, in a direction that is NOT blasphemous of god no matter how much it may seem so now, go into a new age bookstore near you. You will be surprised by how many books you will find on god Jesus, and Love. More than you think.
My response is in Green:
You know you have me all wrong. You claim that I am self-righteous but that is not true. I wonder how much of my page you read. You see I have said in the past and I will say again that I was as bad of a sinner as anyone I know. I have done many things which I am not proud of, but I can't go back and change them. I, like everyone else, could do nothing to save myself, because I had no righteousness. I had to admit to God that I was a sinner, that I realized that He had condemned me for my sins and I needed His help. I was made righteous in His sight by the blood of Jesus Christ, but I am not nor will I ever be self-righteous. I did not say that there is only one way. Jesus said it, but I believe it. (John 14:6 NIV) Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
I understand what you are trying to say, that I think I am better than you and other people, but again you are wrong. I don't go into all the things I have done in the past because I don't want to glorify my sin, but trust me, I have done some bad things. Many people who used to know me would not believe the person I am now.
You are also wrong that I feel I must be this or that to be loved. Let me give you a short Bible lesson, maybe it will help, so you don't make these mistakes again. (John 3:16 NIV) "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
Now just in case you did not catch it in that verse let me show you again: (Romans 5:8 NIV) But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. See I did not have to do anything to be loved by God and neither do you. He loved you before you were even born. We don't have to be a good person for God to love us. It is unconditional love. That is not the same thing as unconditional acceptance. Like I said earlier, I came to realize that God had condemned me to death for my sins, but then I also realized that He provided a way out of that death sentence. So the point is we don't have to earn His love or His salvation, it is ours if we will just take it.
Now if you are talking about the fact that Christians try to live a good life, you are right. But you are wrong as to the reason. We don't have to live a good life to keep God loving us, we try to live a good life because we understand what He did for us and we love Him.
You said you know that I am suffering. Sorry but you are a few years too late. That was all too true before I gave my life to Christ but not anymore. Yes it was also true that I felt all alone and empty, but again not anymore. I even thought of suicide back then, because I did not think life was worth living. That is not me anymore. I am the happiest and most fulfilled that I have ever been. I feel a freedom and a peace that I never felt before.
You say that I have been denied love for who I am. I hope I have already addressed that. God loves me and He loves you. He knows who you really are, but He loves you anyway. He wants to have you know Him too, but it is up to you. I don't need to read New Age books, which are really just old eastern religions. I know where I will go when I die, do you? Are you sure? You can be.
E-Mail Ralph (whose comments are in green)
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