I am only 15 years old. I have been deeply depressed since 5th grade (i'm in 9th now). In 5th grade my grandpa died so that started it. I have attempted suiced a few times. I am scared of it. I want to die in a peaceful way. I dont want to cut my wrists or anything painful like that. I am just getting over annerexia. I cry my self to sleep every single day. I have alot of the signs that i might kill my self. Sometimes i wonder why know one notices. I guess I want someone to notice and help me. I have been seriously thinking about killing my self latley. As a matter of fact about an hour ago before I saw your site I was going to swallow alot of pills. But then I decided to go ahead and e-mail you. When I talk about it to people on-line and they dont know who I am it makes me feel better. I guess I am just looking for a reason to go on and hoping that you would give me one. I hope you can help me because I am so young and my life just started and i want to live a happy life but i dont no if i can take this any more and stop my self from killing my self before i can live that life. I hope you or some one can help me before i do something really serious.
My response is in Green:
I am glad you wrote me. I have the answer but I am not sure you will think so. It is God. God created us to have a relationship with Him and until we do we will feel like something is missing in our lives. That is natural. Many people try to fill that place in their heart with all kinds of stuff, drugs, alcohol, sex, you name it, but none of it works. Oh it may work for a little while, but the emptiness always comes back. That is because that place belongs to God.
God loves you and sent His only Son to die for your sins. We are all born into this world with the tendency to do wrong things, that is why God sent Jesus to die for us. (Romans 5:8 NIV) But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
God wants you to know and love Him too. It makes all the difference in the world. Here is the URL to my page about Jesus, read it. I think it will help you. http://www.behindthebadge.net/jesus.html You don't have to be depressed and feel alone, God will help you.
God created you for a reason. You just won't know what that reason is until you get right with Him so He can show you. Plus if you have never thought about it, you need to think about what happens after you die. Where do you go and what happens? It is the most important thing you can think about if you are thinking about suicide.
You are very young, but many young people think of suicide. They think about it because life just doesn't seem worth living, but that is a lie. It is worth living if you will get on the right path. Let God show you and help you.
You need to get a Bible and start reading it. Start in the New Testament in the book of John. It will explain to you who Jesus is and lots about God. Ask God to help you understand and to know Him. He will help you if you really mean it.
Feel free to write me back too if you like.
E-Mail Ralph (Whose comments are in green)